After spending a lot of time struggling with reclusiveness from an illness and recently the isolation from being on Lockdown I feel like I’m finally getting somewhere.
I’ve just had an online interview with the hope of being accepted for a Peer Education Training Programme and I think it went really well. We’ll see tomorrow or Friday when I hear whether or not I’ve been accepted.
Millions are trying to find employment elsewhere doing the regular thing and I thought I’d go for something that’s a bit different and out of the way of the main stream. I’ve been out of work for over 2 years now and now that I’m healed I’ll try and help others and give something back. I’d been involved with the company 8 years ago, albeit on the receiving end where they supported me through some dark times with depression and now I can return the favour. The training programe is a course of 12 weeks with homework and assignments before a final exam, and I’m looking forward to the work (if I can get it), I need another project.
I say it went well, it did for me and the way they were smiling with their heads nodding I think it did for the two of them too. We had a troubled start to the interview though because my mic wasn’t working for some reason, it had always worked before then. I’m thinking that Microsoft Teams doesn’t like my microphone but I was commended on not losing my cool so that went well, and it showed them upfront what a cool customer I am.
This online world throws up challenges all the time.
Building a website for the people project has shown me just how much of a challenge it can be with the way that all of a sudden it will buffer and lag, stopping and starting, it’s easy to lose hope with it and just give in. Have patience though, it’s not you, it happenes to us all so look at it like it’s a test. I’ll be the first to admit that these tests are sometimes a bit overwhelming. Just walk away for a few minutes and gather your thoughts by counting to ten. OK, 20 then 🙂
Project №1 and again I’ll say, “If I get it?” has to be the NHS education training programme. Update 22/01/2021 – I didn’t get to do the training.
Project №2 the People Project where I’ve built and manage a website which is geared towards Global Peace and Sustainability incorporating the 17 Sustainable Development Goals.
Project №3 My Corner this site.
Project №4 Pinch Punch is a small website that I’ve dedicated to the happenings here in Peterborough UK on the first day of every month,hence the name of the site slogan which is ‘pinch punch for the first of the month.’
Project №5 Adobe Photoshop & Illustrator. I love design, art in general and I love colours. Yesterday I made a composite image of myself next to a Buddah statue and I’ll show it below.
Project №6 Writing on Medium.
I have training in these two apps coming out of my ears and I think that one of the most important values in life has got to be time itself. That and being in the right mindset. I consider myself lucky in the fact that I’ve had time to grow used to being by myself working my mind out getting to the right mindset, where as for some people this is a new thing and with the way that we are forced to live nowadays I can imagine that not being so easy. My advice would be to stop questionning your thoughts and just accept them, no matter how weird they are, you are human and we all can think in weird ways.
One of the most difficult things that I’ve found can be negative thinking. It’s taken me a long time of going through negativity to realise just how harmful that on it’s own can be. I’ll let you into a little secret and that’s that I had help by the way of an Audiobook, called Zero Negativity read by the ex Special Forces Operative Ant Middleton. It wasn’t hearing this book which changed my mind, I’ve been trying to think positively for a long while, but the dialogue helps. So, when you catch yourself thinking in a negative way remind yourself to listen to him. I get no credit for anyone who goes and gets his book, I’m just passing something on.
I love the idea of support.
Protecting the lines from the rear and overseeing the whole picture. I’m not much of a leader, well maybe from now on out I may be but up until now I can’t say that I’ve been a good leader. My head hasn’t been in the right place and things have fallen by the way side. Yes, I’m guilty of neglecting things in my past on a level I still do, myself being the one who is neglected, be that through an unbalanced diet, lack of exercise or smoking. I’m not doing too bad though and there are better days ahead. In fact, I’m doing very well.
It’s just struck me how I’m feeling and how I’m thinking. Happy, positive and friendly is the mood that I’m in right now and it’s hope that made me feel this way. Hope at the prospect of being able to help people and with paid employment to boot. Hope has a lot of strength and for some there is no hope in their lives. I’ve seen this in Lockdown where I’ve had absolutely no engagement with anybody. There’s been a communication breakdown if you ask me and thousands are wanting to reach out, they just don’t know how or don’t have the means. I’m one of them, reaching out, by way of writing this letter, engagement keeps us going and in my world, even with all of this technology that I have, there’s very little in the way of communication and engagement. That’s why today I contacted Age.UK to be a telephone befriender for the elderly, if I can feel cut off and abandoned myself then how does an eldery gent or lady feel when they live all alone? Support and engagement is what’s needed, probably all over the world.
Just reorganizing my filing directory on my computer has put me in better spirits. Having a good clear out makes us all feel better and I suppose I can think of it as an early Spring cleaning session. The next thing I have to do which can be project №7 will be decorating my flat walls, however I might just leave that until I move. That way I can do things in the proper order 🙂
Positivity and Support is where I am on my road of Recovery right now. I don’t drink anymore and I don’t do drugs, apart from the scripted kind. The only thing I’m doing which is negative is smoking tobacco and I have an attempt to stay quitted in hand aswell. Stay positive in your world and with the right support you’ll get through, those who think that they can do it all alone are living in denial and I can say that from experience.
Stay Safe.
